it's gonna be a lovely day...

It had been an extremely good day so far.

Woke up this morning feeling it is gonna be quite an ordinary day like any other. Still had to go to work, still had to do the usual mundane things. Still thought I couldn't skip work cos I had some datelines I promised other colleagues to fulfill. I went about my usual daily morning routines and headed off to work.

SMS-ed shifu on my way to work as usual. I don't know why, but i started telling him wat I dreamt this morning.

I dreamt of my father again. This time the setting is in some cny gathering at a friend's place. The apartment / flat was entirely white in color, with red cny decorations. I stepped in and my friends greeted me, the guys were suave, the gals were very pretty and totally dressed up for the joyous festive occasion. I hugged a few of them on my way in. Then I noticed someone sitting there on the sofa in a corner. It was my dad, he was dressed in a very trendy and hip manner. He was wearing those retro brown shades in gold rims, with white long-sleeved shirt and pants and nice leather shoes. His body looked slim and yet fit, tanned, like he had worked out in the gym. He looked so good, like he had never before. He looked so well.

I walked up to him and took a seat beside him on the sofa. I called him like I normally would... "daddy". He didn't say a word and continued playing on this grey psp he held in his hands. But he tilted the psp over to me, to show me what he was playing, this fighting game which looked abit cartoonish. I don't know if I was just happy to see him this well, or just happy to see him. Recalling the dream was extreme joy for me. Shifu commented my dream was so cute. I agree, it was cute and sweet. I wonder if my dad was hinting for me to get a psp for him to play. I was just thankful to be able to see my dad. It was probably because I happen to see a pic we took together in my younger days last night. But whatever the cause, I'm thankful.

The music player on my handphone was also contributing to my ever-lovely start to this lovely day. Playing silly yet catchy songs like the "Ding Dong Song". I asked shifu if he heard of this song before, and told him I love it, the lyrics are so stupid, but I love it. I reached my office, for a moment there was this woman who had the think-she-very-pretty attitude, who gave me the wanna-kill-you look when the lift door nearly closed on her, if not for me pressing the open button quickly. Yes I pressed the close button, but that was because I didn't see anyone behind me when I entered the lift. Instead of a 'Thank You', she gave me the side-stare like I nearly murdered her. Fine, blame yourself for walking so slowly in your high heels and stop trying to think you're atas just because you're carrying a gucci bag. My day is too good to be ruined by a bitch like you :) kthxbye.

After a short but sweet complaining session to Norman about the stupid lift bitch, coming to terms with our lives, that we had so much more to live on for as compared to our problems in life, with Casey, I went on to fill in my Performance Review for the rest of the year. I asked for the budget figures from Jas and LH and both dear gals were so quick and prompt with their replies. (Thank you dears! :)) Filling the performance review was so much easier for me today than it seemed for me yesterday. My ideas and memory just came back, everything was flowing so freely, like how I managed to write-up about my day now. It was effortless, almost. :) Windows Media Player was extremely good as well, playing all the songs which made me bob my head along. Today my msn nick was "its gonna be a lovely day". Being the usual pessimist, it was extremely rare to see me this hopeful and joyful. Even the news about how this gym personal trainer, who 2-3 years ago held my hand to assist me to balance on this exercise ball one evening, had pass away because he was suffering from depression didn't get me down really. He must have felt all alone and that he had no one to turn to and no way to solve all his problems. I understood that feeling. I'm just glad he is now somewhere better off, it is sinful to commit suicide but I want to believe he is somewhere happier and i pray he will no longer be tormented. For me, I'm definitely not taking his path, because I still have the support of my friends. At my most down moment, I am glad there are still friends whom I will think of talking to.

Then it was lunch with my best sec sch fren at Cineleisure. It was a very good lunch, she listened to my problems and gave me advice to think them through hard. I told her I had been thinking and it is almost driving me crazy everyday. She told me it could only go 1 way or another, not bulldoze through. And she treated me to lunch, I was looking forward to the next lunch i'll be having with her. Again, thankful for such a good lunch I had with her. As I stepped out of the lift at my office level, my ex-director whom was dressed in this pretty red dress greeted me so joyously. She exclaimed "hey you're back!! Welcome back! So good to see you!" I flashed her a very big smile before the lift doors closed on her, I never felt so appreciated and happy for so long. Heh speak of the devil, I was telling WL earlier during lunch that my ex-director ever gave me some bgr advice. She is a woman I look up to, a great teacher who always inspires me to give my best and all. 2 more weeks before she goes on sabbatical leave for her daughter's sake. Although she will no longer be with us in the office, I will be rooting for her and her decision.

So, the day had been excellent so far! A few more hours to dinner with boss and the rest whom I've been talking to everyday in-game. I'm sure the day will continue to be this good way into the night. I'm sure to sleep tonight with a smile upon my face, no matter how crazy that seems. I guess heaven just chose to reward me in little ways for all the effort i've put in my daily life so far.

A very thoughtful line which I came across today:
What you can control, do control. What you cannot control, don't let it control you.