I don't wanna try to fight this love, how dangerous can it be?
I know the odds are so unfavorable, and honesty's forsakeable.
So many run for safety, run from the
Danger of falling in love like this, danger of falling apart, in the hands, of another. Danger in falling in love like this, cold sweat craving the dark, so completely, so sweetly. Danger.
Things have gone wrong, they do more often than they don't. I was a child before, a soldier in defense. I'll take the leap, I've gone so far for lesser gold. I wanna know this life, by your side.
So I don't wanna try to fight this love, how dangerous can it be?
I know the odds are so unfavourable, and honesty's forsakeable. So many run for safety. From the,
Danger of falling in love like this, danger of falling apart, in the hands, of another. Danger in falling in love like this, cold sweat craving the dark, so completely, so sweetly.
This entire anime reeks of boy-love. LOL!! Not that I'm complaining... Ayanami, the antagonist in this story is too smexy for me to hate him entirely. Him and Frau are my favourite characters in this anime so far. (Hahaha, anime does that to priests pic!)
They have the usual spec-donning side characters, and the young cute boyish ones, in fact the main character, Teito Klein is one. His obsession with his best friend Mikage is something that I will never understand, at least not to his depth. The theme is nice, with priests and military against each other, two very opposite factions.
Ayanami's character actually reminds me of RO. The boy's cap. (I think I have an obsession with caps and earphones. Don't ask me why LOL!) Frau is funny with his perverted ways, but yet you know he is a caring, strong character. Watch out for his library books antics and you will know why he's perverted ;p
What is attractive about this anime, again is the story behind each character, and how they are all brought together through fate or destiny. Somehow, I don't think Ayanami's character is that evil. He was seen to be protective of his friends, something which truly evil beings would not be able to have done. Although he threatened Mikage with his sister, eventually nothing bad was ever done to her. Ah, understanding the greyness of one's character. I wonder if its because I'm getting older. This cosplay pic of Ayanami, the funny Hyuuga and subordinate Konatsu is so apt. Luv Ayanami's purplish-white hair and cool expression. The uniforms and props such as the grey throne are also very nicely done. Haha, Hyuuga and his lollipop!
I especially love the ending theme song, it reminds me of another aspect of RO's music. Noria's high-pitched, nasal-sounding voice also fits this song beautifully, adding-on to its naive childish, hopeful feel from the meaning of the lyrics. So enjoy this song, "Hitomi no Kotae" by Noria. ;)
Last night was a "nightmare". I thought I had settled it really nicely with the mail reply I wrote. But it seems I would always get disappointed with such themes.
I happily left work yesterday, proud of myself for giving a good reply. Good reply as in, something non-offending, putting things across as straight-forward as possible, without sugar-coating my words saying things just for the sake of saying them. Such as "oh you're a nice guy but...", "i wish i can give you a chance but...". All these talk is worthless in my opinion. It doesn't even matter. So I'm still open to the invitation of being friends.
He logged into game and asked if he could have a talk with me. Fine, we talked and I wondered what else he didn't understand. But it escalated into crazy, stupid theories / assumptions of how I was afraid of him, afraid of entering a relationship, how I lied that looks don't matter but it does, how I just view him as a bypasser in my life, how he would not give up, how we can be friends first then see if we can proceed further from there. I wonder what is the point, the last thing I wanna do is give someone false hopes and lead him on. And he tells me he rather have hope and try rather than no hope at all. *roll eyes* okie, I've heard these many times, I'm just not gonna fall for it this time again. So no. And again in my opinion, better to end things fast than slow and draggish. (I guess this is one of my guy-ish traits again. Someone who can be so cold and heartless.)
I got really pissed off when here I am being direct, straight to the point, and this fella is assuming there is something more to everything I said. It felt like someone putting his hands to his ears and going on and on without listening to a word I say. I asked why did he write in Chinese, he said he could express himself better. Right, I understand that, just like I feel I can express myself better in English. So I asked if he wanted to type in Chinese instead, I can read. But he refused, and the whole time we were like this chicken and duck talking. 90% of the time, I couldn't even understand what the hell he was saying, and why he was saying those. It was utterly frustrating.
Eventually I had it. I lied that I liked someone else. Then he goes on to ask if that person knows. (omfg) I said I have a bad temper when he asked if I have cooled down. Then he goes on to say "Leos are like that." My goodness, why was he so presumptuous about me? He made it sound like he knew me very well. Even my family and best friends only know certain sides of me, who is he to assume he knows me?
All these talk while I was trying to dance, and my girl friend trying to flirt with one of my guy friends, right infront of my nose. (As usual, I should be used to it by now. But it never fails to make me feel awkward. I still don't get why people do that infront of me. Trying to prove something? Or it was just such an innate behaviour to flirt with every single guy they know?) Well, I had quite enough for the night, so I told him that we just didn't understand each other. With that, he finally understood. (wow, was that some magical line or wat?) I said my goodbyes to him, he told me "God bless you." I said the same to him and he said "no need, hell better for me." (See? That is what I meant by saying things for the sake of saying them.) So I told him neither do I need it. I know, such a blasphemy from me, but if he doesn't need my sincere blessings, why should I need his? I can live very well without them. =\ By this time, I'm already trying very hard to refrain from tearing or breaking something.
So there, as another friend would put it, I'm back to my "killing" ways, assassination mode. These people should be more grateful that my killing methods are clean, straightforward and direct. I hope they appreciate it.
P.S. that fella's FB acct have like hundreds of female friends, and all that bs about being first gf? Try harder. =x
Newest song from my fave female Korean singer Gummy. Ironically, the song she is singing this time again, is so easy to relate to. Although it sounds quite typically like some US song.
Her image in this mtv, is kinda strong. Long black hair, long black dress. I liked that bridge part where she wore her hair up, red lipstick and a white top.
Everyone is crazed, love is a lie. Super pessimistic song heh. Realistic or naive?
Sometimes I don't know if I'm really down in my luck, or I always seem so "inviting" to such people. Just got an email message from someone whom I've barely even talked to a few days ago.
自从在那晚(29Apr10)与你认识到交淡后，我就对你念念不忘，一直想再多了解你多一点。可是你总是没出现，让我倍感失落。无时无刻查看你有上网吗，有回信吗，等等。。。。。。 (At this point of time, I still can't believe my eyes with what I'm reading.... chinese? huh? Why is he writing in chinese?)
有几句话我说了，你一定认为我在开玩笑，因为我们才交淡一次，又没见过对方，也不了解对方。那句话就是：“我们交往吧！做我第一，唯一，最终的女朋友吧！我是认真的，给我机会照顾，呵护及疼爱你吧！” (I'm wondering if he copied this from somewhere. Totally doesn't sound like chinese a typical singaporean would write. Or maybe I'm too banana myself already. The language here totally sounds like either china or taiwan-type. I'm definitely not feeling this.)
我想了几天几夜，考虑了很久，才鼓起勇气，写了这封告白信给你。我想我终于找到我这一生寻寻觅觅的另一半，那就是你！让我在你觉得孤单寂寞时，佔居你的空虚。让我在你伤心难过时，靠在我的怀抱里哭泣。让我在每年的生日，情人节时，陪你度过 (Freaked out at this point, going "wtf"?)
我不擅于表达，也不会甜言蜜语，说的全都是真心话。让我们试着交往吧！给我机会也等于给你一个机会。如果你愿意给我机会的话，请发简讯到9XXXXXX给我。如果你认为我们只适合做普通朋友的话，请回信给我就行了，除非你不介意让我知道你的手机号码。 期待你的回复，你一定要辛福哦！ (Seriously, I'm not in the mood for believing in anyone who wishes for me to have happiness now. Its not that I don't believe there are still nice, kind people who wants the best for me in everything. I just don't feel and don't wanna feel anything anymore.
I dun really wanna be naive anymore... at least, not yet... )
I dunno what is up seriously. I don't even think I know him. For now, I only know I've gotta deal with it, and the answer is apparent. Don't exactly have anything holding me back on my answer. Just need to know how to deal with people nicely and maybe reply back in my simplistic lousy cheena. Oh nevermind, I'll just write back in whatever way i'm comfortable i guess.
I only have one phrase to describe how i feel about this now... "Fuzakenna".
Can relate to this song to a T, at this point of time.... Love the piano parts with the catchy electronic beats in the background. The dance was abit funny-looking but catchy as usual, the "sliding" step was suave! Watch the mtv, it reminds me of the "heartbeat" mtv, just much more darker with the black rain falling.
Black, my fave color. Rain, my fave emo weather. And who is that doing that famous move of throwing his shirt onto the ground? *grins*
Highlights: Beginning rap part I'm gonna get stronger
right, its better to be separated. Anyways I knew at some point you and I would have had this situation. I definitely know you would have done this instead of that, its better to be me right now after I was in deep love I knew I'm relieved I knew about this. That's why I'm ok
Chorus I'm gonna be ok (gonna be ok) I'll be ok (gonna be ok) Baby without you, baby without you.
Mid-song rap part Listen, everything happens for a reason, everything happens for a reason. That doesn't even make sense, obviously what you said is gonna be proved wrong, so just turn around. It really hurts me to see you, I want to stop.
Bridge Why did you do this to me (why) Seriously why did you do this to me (made me cry) You threw away everything we have had, was everything we did actually valuable? The times we had together, the times we could have had together Aren't you even sad about it? Do you not care? Right now are you, are you ok without me?
Yes, they have finally released another mini album. And yes, I am finally updating my blog here again. *Phew* =\ Believe me, I wish I can update it more often. But the past few months have been hellish. Hell-ish, emotionally and physically.
Frankly I have so much to say, to the point I don't know where to start. Should I be talking about what's happening with me lately? Or should I start by telling the story from the start, or my comments on certain things in the world revolving around me? Ok let me re-organize. This post shall be about 2PM updates yah? =) Since the title involves 2PM's new mini album. I will group and prioritize the rest into further posts. (Yay!! Massive update of the blogz. =p)
2PM is my fave korean boyband, ever since last November. I can see the "good-ness" in almost every 2PM members. Goodness such as the purpose of them being in the group. I don't know if I'm too engrossed with work / business stuff recently, but it is true that everyone contributes to the success of a group, be it popbands, organization, community. In each and small little way, everyone counts. Without anyone, the group would not fail / fall, but there would definitely be a change or impact to the future of the group, how it works and what's gonna happen for them. Each of them were there for a purpose, to fill in the gaps that the rest could not fulfill. Talk about good marketing techniques. :)
So you can imagine my disappointment when leader Jay Park left the group. Initially, it was due to some comments he wrote in his mySpace blog, which I feel shouldn't be the main reason for him to leave. But it was due to this incident, which probably made him realise something, that this is not for him. Or a mistake in the past was even far worse greater reason for him to leave. Whatever it is, it is his decision and others should try to respect that. The poor guy has made a decision to leave, let him stick to it and get on with his life. I know everyone wants him back, myself too, but if he has made a decision, let's not try to make things difficult for him. As long as he's happy, all is well.
Same goes for the rest of the members in 2PM. They have moved on, releasing this new mini album. They still go on with their tour dates. In fact, they should move on. If they don't, it is not even logical. Do some fans think that with Jay gone, the whole band should just stop there or disband? No way... c'mon, everyone worked hard. They've come to this stage, it is so much easier to just walk away from it all and disband the whole thing. But it takes alot of strength and effort to continue walking the line. To work even harder to prove to their fans they will continue to make good music, dance and entertainment. So let's give them the credit for that yah? (Even though I'm starting to feel a little annoyed with some of the stronger characters in this group. But I'm sure they have their own reasons behind it. They care, which is probably why they are portrayed as angrier. Different people respond differently to let-downs. Some get sad, emo, some get angry. It is a cycle of emotions. Some people feel angry first... as time goes by, they get sad. Some sad initially, then the more they think about it, the angrier they get. But eventually, people look back and all these form impressionable memories. Pretty sure a few years down the road, nobody will even remember or mind what had happened. Who knows they may get back together eventually 1 day and laugh it off together? Just cherish what they have got currently, because once it is gone, it is gone.)
As for their new songs titled "Don't Stop Can't Stop" and "Without You", it is obvious they are trying to portray where they stand, with Jay leaving. Frankly we will never know the real reason that caused him to leave, unless he announces or declares it. So I would say, good marketing and sharp creativity skills coming from JYP, on producing these two songs to be covered-up as a "break-up" in romantic terms. But you and I know, the song could so easily be symbolic of Jay's incident.
So enjoy the first song from the album: Don't Stop Can't Stop. Strong feelings depicted here, which boosts my morale up this morning, while listening to it on the way to work. Let it burn, i'm gonna be stronger... ironically, it is like how my msn nick is sometimes: Motto motto tsuyoi (extracted from Clare in Claymore).
So we don't stop, can't stop, until we reach the top!!!
